Useless Regrets.

i didn't know it will be this hurt.

i never knew, and nobody told me that.

i only know it when i experience it myself, right now.

the feeling when you will be separated with your beloved friends, i finally understand it now. 'People always appreciate their beloved one only when they're gone' <-- i completely agree. i never knew that i love my friends this much. and i never thought this is harder than being scolded by teachers or dad.

Batch96 has just received their PMR result few days ago. i would have expected this to be. i'm so nervous to receive whatever my result was without thinking how many friends will i loss after receiving it.

i should have just appreciated them back then. i should always say thanks to them, for being by my side all the time. i should have just apologized to them, for always being a heavy burden to them. i should have just hugged them, to show how i appreciate them much. and i should have just treated them nicely, as they've been my friends although i'm lacking in many things. yet, i still didn't do that.

i feel like crying now ; thinking how the next year's Form4 will be. it will be different. and it will never be the same. i miss the time we're doing Kem Soleh '10. i learned many things in that program ; especially teamwork and leadership. also, i will never forget how our 'orientation' was like. it was torturing, but i can see our senior's care for us ; for us to get ready for a tough life in Maahad.

now i have to accept the fact. the fact that nothing will last forever. so my advice will be, appreciate your beloved one when they're still on your side. don't let it be like 'nasi jadi bubur' ; that's more than useless. although studying for PMR and being pushed that way to succeed is very depressing, i really enjoy that stressful moment. everyone's helping each other ; in other to achieve the best result ; and that's worked, when we achieve 101 9As, breaking off the old record.

i am really proud of you Batch96 ; you're really the best. the boundary that we've strongly built, don't you ever forget it. although we'll be far apart-ed after this, let's keep our hearts as one. just like how we were. even if we're still together next year, we still have to apart from each other the next two years. i will miss it, and will never forget my beautiful friendship here in Maahad Hamidiah, those who's with me since 2009 till 2011.

let's shout out : FRIENDS!! I LOVE YOU!!! THANK YOU!